Wednesday, July 02, 2008

I Can't Wait

The boys and I have been down at my parents' house since Monday, and Ruth and Austin are here too. Mrs. Tero, one of their neighbors, has a pool in her backyard, and we've been over there pretty much every day - it's been so great for my boys. After the first few days, Ethan is finally swimming short distances without help! He is so proud of himself, and I have to admit, it does something to my heart to see my oldest show his age. He is growing up, and I alternate between emotions about it. Mostly I am just so proud of him.

Dad and I went to a Sara Groves concert last night. I realized afterwards how much I have missed music. There is just something about well written lyrics and just the right melody that can move my spirit in a way that words alone can't do.

It's not that I don't listen to music anymore - I do. In fact, I have music playing most of the time at home and in the car too. But there just isn't the time for much reflection on the words right now - life is just a little too busy with making PB&J's and wiping sticky hands! :)

During the concert, Sara sang several songs all in a row that she had written to her children. She apologized and said she knew that we (the audience) obviously weren't all in the same stage in life, but that's where she is and where her heart is...and so she had to sing them. I could really relate to that. When you're a mom, sometimes it feels like you have no other interests. Your little family is your whole world, and so many of your prayers and desires are for them...for your children and for the kind of people they will grow up to be.

It seems like motherhood becomes this platform where the Lord reveals Himself. As a parent you try so hard to train your children in the way they should go, but before you know it, the Lord uses them to mold you too. It seems unlikely, since being a mom of little ones usually means less time in the Word, a brain that has seemingly gone to mush (from lack of sleep!), and an endless string of cheerios to pick up off the floor (which keeps your focus on the here and now). When is the Lord supposed to teach you something anyway???? Or maybe that's just me. :)



But it's been true in my life, that's for sure. In these last 4 years, as I've been raising little ones, the Lord has been raising me too. I loved this song by Sara.


I Can't Wait
by Sara Groves

When you reach the proper age
I will teach you to read and you can turn the pages
How to dress and tie your shoes
Your one plus ones, and your two times two's
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important things
And all that i have lost along the way
And I can't wait

As you grow, I'll show you things
How to ride your bike and kick your legs out on the swings
To fold your hands and bow your head
How to say your prayers before you go to bed
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important things
And all that I have lost along the way
And I can't wait

How do you sleep so peacefully?
How do you trust unflinchingly?
How do you love so faithfully?
How do you dance so joyfully?
Oh you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important (essential) things
And all that i have lost along the way
And I can't
No I can't
Come teach me
Of love and dreams
And all the most essential things
And all that I have lost along the way
Cause I can't wait

5 comments:

A & J said...

I love Sara Groves.
And very well put Rachel. I often thinking "if this child would only get out of this rotten period or little stage...", but that stage is just as much for me to learn something too.

Shawna said...

oh, I loved reading that song and your thoughts.

how fun to go to a concert with your dad, i bet that was wonderful.

I miss you!

Kim & Dave said...

Oh, my!

:tears:

Love those lyrics!

Caleb and Anna said...

Beautiful. Is that on her latest CD? -A

Anonymous said...

Thanks for sharing. Music is such a wonderful way for God to speak, isn't it? Perspective on mothering is always helpful, too. :)
~Robin